An intriguing proposition.

So, there’s this guy I flirt with online.

It’s been going on for years now.

He’s married. I know he cheats on his wife. I feel bad about that.

He lives in Oregon, so it’s really easy to say no to him inviting me down.

Well, the end of this month he’s going to be in Niagara Falls, NY. That’s only a few hours from here.

I’m tempted to go visit.

He’s only in town for the day, so it would be very brief.

I am really tempted.

I think it makes me a bad person.

I don’t believe in cheating on a significant other. I think it’s wrong. Why am I considering cheating with him? I don’t know.

Part of it is that I’m damned lonely and have been for a long time.

Part of it is that it’s been more than a year (probably more than two years) since I’ve had any sexual contact. And I want some.

I don’t know what to think about myself right now. I’m really conflicted.

I just don’t know.