My other whining.

It’s the same, really, as whining from before.

I’m lonely.

I’m horny.

I feel like men don’t see me, ever.

The new part is that my vibrator broke. lol

So, I’ll have to go out an buy a new one of those. It seems pretty important lately.

It’s weird, I can go for weeks without thinking about sex. And then it’s like nothing else matters anymore!

The last week or so I’ve been choosing things to watch based on how hot (and how naked) the men are in it.

So, I’ve seen: Blade Trinity, Wolverine, and I’m now watching True Blood. (Right now, Eric is naked in Bill’s huge bathtub, it’s quite lovely.)

Seriously, I need to get some. This is ridiculous!

I don’t know how to find a guy. Even if I were to find one, I’m not sure how to get one interested in me.

I was trying to fill out my profile on a dating website and it asked what people first notice about me. My first instinct was to put “how fat I am”. Or “nothing, because people don’t see me”.

What do people see when they look at me?

I don’t know.

Do they even see me?

I don’t know that either.

I’m 35 and alone. I’ve always been alone my whole life. It sucks.

I don’t want to be alone anymore.

And not just because of sex. I’d like companionship, snuggles, someone to talk to. All sorts of stuff like that.

What did I do to deserve being left alone like this? Why don’t I get someone? Why do other people get someone and not me?